I have seen a lot of people complaining about 'gay people' and their
parades. I have come to the conclusion that my website is probably
something like a gay pride parade. Many people may think it is too
much information, and they might not understand why I feel the need
to put it out there. Most people don't understand that I haven't had
equality, and that I am actually fighting for it. If I quietly
disappear, I have no chance to help other people understand.
It's difficult for many people to understand depression and other
mental health issues, because these issues can be very complex.
People are already struggling to deal with the complexities of modern
life as it is, without having to learn about and be sensitive to all
the possible factors that others face. I am by no means certain that
I am sensitive or knowledgeable enough when it comes to very many
subjects, including the ones I am most familiar with.
My website may come across in some ugly ways. Many of the individual
articles in the psychoanalysis may be unfinished or too self-absorbed
on their own, but taken as a whole, I can begin to see my own
situation more clearly.
When I wrote the psychoanalysis, I didn't really understand the
extent to which I was facing judgments and the effects of stigma from
my own family, friends and acquaintances, or that in many ways they
were giving me the same messages as society.
At present, my assessment is that depression is a valid or
appropriate response to the state of modern life.