When someone is facing the pressure of cyber-bullying, I would want
that person to have a safe place to discuss all they are going
through and feeling. I would want that person to believe they have a
right to seek help and support. I would not want them to feel that
suicide is their only option. I would not want my site to be
something that makes people feel more hopeless.
On my site, I am trying to explain how it is possible for some people
to slip through the cracks when it comes to seeking help for mental
health issues, or when it comes to fitting into life. There are dark
aspects to life that some people, including me, have a need to
discuss. This is not necessarily the right approach for all or most
people. I don't want to confuse or harm anyone, but at the same time,
I do care about trying to connect with those who might have a need to
express some of the dark things that I myself am preoccupied
with.
If a vulnerable person sees some of her/himself in what I express, I
want to stress that I don't believe this means that person is doomed
to turn out like me. In telling my story and sharing my observations,
one of my hopes is that others will be able to spot what could be
done differently, when it comes to themselves or someone they care
about. The things I talk about on my site relate to what I could not
resolve in a satisfactory way, when it came to official or
'professional' help, or when it came to my own personal efforts, and
those of family and friends.
I am 47 now, and have been struggling since my teens. It took a very
long time for me to become as isolated as I am, with few realistic
chances to connect with life and people. I am all for encouraging
those who are struggling, whether they are young or not, to reach
out, and to try again if their previous efforts didn't work out. As
for myself, all I am able to do at this point is try to communicate
my individual story. While I am still communicating, there is at
least the possibility of connection. If I stop communicating,
there is no longer any chance.
Are there people who believe the world would be a better place if I
just quietly went away? Through reading many of the appalling online
comments related to victims of cyber-bullying, I would have to say
yes, I believe there are many people out there who would be happy if
I killed myself. However, I do not have to face the horrific pressure
of people telling me to do so.
->exile on meme st: a diary
->xesce.net
